June 26, 2008

Last night we showed the Jesus film in a village way outside of Nampula. ( I hate the Jesus film). Then we asked for the sick to come forward. I didn’t even feel afraid… but the realization that we were the only healers there – as in we were the only vessels available – no Heidi, no Bill Johnson, no John Wymber, no Dr. Rob… just some simple willing people – hit me and I felt myself slip into survival mode. Everyone I prayed for got healed… but it all felt so empty even though I could feel your power move through me. It was like when Jesus was in the crowed and a woman touches the hem of His robe and He felt the power leave Him… it was like that. I was so tired and not interested in these people at all by this time. But clearly You were. Clearly You knew their names and their faces and their needs because I didn’t even have to try. It was your night… not mine. The power just came. The compassion just came. One healing imparticular was so amazing to me.
I watched a woman’s thumb, which was completely twisted and could not bend at all, get healed and bend all the way. I could feel her thumb untwist inside of my hand. She was so happy- she kept showing her friends and everyone just stood around and watched. It still wasn’t completely straight though. So I just wanted her to feel loved… not fixed so I continued to pray. But then some girls came and prayed with me, but they were kind of on a power trip because they didn’t even looked at her. Hey started rebuking stuff in her and commanded healing to come. Nothing happened. One of them saw that she had a necklace and decided it was witchcraft and made her take it off. Still nothing. Then they left and I continued to pray out of love and she got completely healed! She started dancing and wiggling her thumbs and giving me thumbs up and sending other people to get prayer from me.

Even though we’re not supposed to give things to them, I gave her my necklace. She asked if it was a good one and I said yes.

Jesus I thank you for showing up! I am sorry for not having faith but I thank you for building it quickly in me. I felt like last night I moved in love. Not love for the people. But my love with you carried me. It felt beautiful and I could feel you the whole night.

I love you.