How they ache inside of me - protruding through my shell - functioning as though lifeless yet alive enough to feel the sorrow. 


Repentance is a gift and we numb ourselves to paralysis. 

But the pain murmurs deeply and quietly beneath my facade where I claim Lovesickness with boldness. 

But I am not Lovesick any more, dear sir. To love and yearn for it can only come out of tasting and seeing the joy that might be set on the horizon. 

I haven't tasted in a while. I've forgotten what I once burned for. 

I beseech you then, dear sir... to breathe life upon these broken bones. Could they stand again? Could they dance again? Could they fly again?

Daddy, can I hope again? Can I love again? I cry out to you in my season of despair. Show your voice. Where is my song? Come bless my broken bones, Papa. Heal me. 

Flood my heart and my path O God... reveal your path within my heart. Reveal the YES in my spirit for I know that in my depths, it longs for ONLY You. 

Father, 


I want to trust You so badly. Take me into Your arms and remind me that You have been holding me all along. 

It's not about trusting You in what You are doing, but trusting You in who You are. It's not about You loving me for what I do for You, but about loving me for who I am... for who You say I am. 

Oh Father, steal me from myself. Take me away - lift me up into Your reality into Your tangible atmosphere. 

I NEED YOU.